Dear Father,
You really need to learn how to handle yourself around other people. You think nothing can hurt you, and you will say anything to get your way. You are manipulative and conniving, and you put yourself before others. I know you care about me a lot, you have to. A little advice though, bragging about me an forcing me to be perfect is not showing me you care. You used to be awesome, if I remember correctly, even though it was just towards me. What happened? You treat other people, and your other family, like shit. People have actually told me they feel sorry for me for having to deal with you, and some of them have been your old friends and acquaintances. That should be a hint right there. If you don’t change, you are going to die alone, and that sucks for you. You already don’t have many friends that stay around. When you treat me badly, I can handle that. But when you hurt others it literally makes me cringe. It is embarrassing. I still can’t get some of the things you’ve said to Anne out of my head. And it is driving me crazy. I don’t think you understand how you’ve changed me. It is not all you, obviously, but some of the stuff you have said to me have literally permanently left scars. I have a 4.0, never gotten in any real trouble, and have have many other skills. Yet you’ve actually told me before that I’m stupid, lazy, and won’t accomplish anything unless I do exactly what you tell me. You need to control your anger, or stop taking it out on me. Oh and please don’t threaten to leave me on my own, again. It feels like shit when you do. And don’t even get me started about when you drink. I love you, I care about you, and I feel sorry for you. Please change before it is too late. My only hope is that I don’t turn into you.
(3 months ago)
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